Attention Deficit oh looooook butterfly!!!

So, it has come to my attention(finally) that I probably had A.D.D as a child.
I didn't even know what A.D.D really was till I was about 20. Even then, I didn't realize that I had it. Only till about last year, I sat down and calmed myself down and started to ponder my younger days... I never really excelled in school like a normal asian, I couldn't concentrate and chatted most of the time, I get told I jump from one topic to the other in a millisecond and so forth...
Then I started to wonder... Would it have helped if my parents noticed it at an early stage and fed me Ritalin for breakfast, lunch and supper? Probably. Maybe I would of been a doctor or an accountant or even an IT brainiac right now... Hahahah who am I kidding.. I wouldn't have enjoyed any of those careers.. HAHAHAHHA...  Right.. back to A.D.D... you see, asian parents don't have a definition for A.D.D... I know that because I tried looking for it, and the translation came up to something that one would be described in a psych ward, which I'm clearly not, duhhhhhh..and it's quite disturbing. Bipolar doesn't exist,ADHD doesn't exist, multiple personality doesn't exist...well it probably does but asian parents would just think that their child is highly imaginative and would praise them instead. Do you see where I'm going with this?

So a few days ago, I was back home hanging out with my rents when I mentioned to my mom that I had ADD.. this is pretty much how it went...(By the way, I love fucking around with my mom because she'll blame anything on me being gay since ADD is mostly found in little boys, but I left that info out of the conversation)

Me: Do you know what ADD is?


Mom: No, I've never heard of such a thing


Me: Hold on, let me go check what it is in chinese *skips off*

~An hour later~


Me: So it's *insert crazy chinese terminology*


Mom*look of shock and horror on her face*: I still haven't heard of it, what is it???


Me: Well, mom, remember when I was a child, I couldn't concentrate for shit, and it's not because I'm hyper too, that's probably why I didn't do so well in school. Did you know that you could of given me medication?


Mom: You seemed normal when you were small.(Clearly asian parents don't see signs of anything)


Me: WELL... I had it, just saying, and you could of helped me.


Mom*Super worried face*: Do you need medication now?

Me: No, haha too late, I've got the adult form now. It's called ADHD *jumps around and skips off*


I still don't think they take me seriously. I personally don't think I need any medication because it will probably fuck my mental state up even more, and it hasn't taken me 5 hours to type this blog, so I think I'm doing okay.It's not easy being hyperactive because everybody around you knows you've got to calm down. Everybody, but yourself, because you actually think you're acting normal.*sad face*
Speaking of ADD and hyper-activeness, it brings me to the subject of drugs. But I'll leave that for another day... because I probably won't end this post if I start something new.

~Peace and Love~ 

Boom Bam!

I'm back again!
Yes.. its been a while since my last post. Partly because I have changed jobs and I no longer sit in front of my computer facebooking and chatting all day. Luckily for me, I got promoted after a month and a half and I get to do that at work all day again :)
So lets blame most of it on my laziness and traits of procrastination.
Right. What has been happening in the world of the Lesbiantronics?
Drama. Drama. Drama. What else is new?
I've just realized something though... you shouldn't ever shit where you eat. If there's a group of friends, don't fuck things up and do whatever the fuck you want to do because YOU don't care about the consequences. It's basically asking for shit the moment you make that move. It's just not cool! Grow the eff up because you're not children anymore but you're acting as if you're dawdling in the sandpit in pre-school.

Apart from that, I really can't stand the girls that are all about avoiding drama and "ooh I hate drama, get drama out of my face" meanwhile, back at the vajayjay-ranch, they are the ones creating the most problems. Don't come to me and have verbal diarrhea because you're too young and immature to handle truths.  SERIOUSLY?
My mind is seriously all over the place because I think it's all the built up thoughts that I've had in months, so excuse me if I'm jumping from one topic to the other.
On the other hand... After 3 months, I've finally found myself again. I thought it was going to take a bit longer, but bam! It's easier than I thought. I suppose certain actions make it easier for me to go on with life and enjoy what's right in front of me instead of looking back and tripping down memory lane. Yes. Tripping. It's awesome getting up and moving forward. Having incredible friends here with me as well as new encounters :)
I'm looking forward to what's ahead of me.

In other news, Amy Winehouse passed away. There's been an abnormally large amount of jokes going around regarding her death. Truth to be told, the jokes were probably around long before her death, and now that it's ACTUALLY become real. I'm not too sure on what I think about her death and the jokes about it. On one  hand I have 5% sympathy and 95% I-don't-care attitude. It's true. They tried to get her to go to rehab, but she said No,no,no.

*Chuckle* I'm going to hell. I know.

Peace and love